ELove's Brain Online

Soooo In the last two and a half months I have been on antibiotics for a month and a half O.o. That is insane but I'm still not better so I have to take an antibiotic that I'm allergic to now its the only one that is effective enough. I'm getting at the end of my rope one again because what keeps me strong is my faith, my friends, and volunteering but this illness is hindering all that. My faith has gotten me this far but when you are feeling this sick its even hard to pray sometimes. I know my bible study group is praying for me I just wish I could be with them they mean so much to me. I'm starting to feel like the shell of myself again. I've broken down a few times but my faith is very strong right now my heart is heavy with the love of Jesus so I am very happy for that otherwise I would be a mess and it would just make everything worse. I just miss my church and just being near other people with the same faith. I have a hard time praying for help from God which is weird its usually easier for people to ask and not thank God. I try to pray for strength, courage and health I hope that's the right thing if there is a right thing to pray for. My poor little body I feel so bad for it haha. I'm so young but my body feels so old but at least my heart and mind are in a good place (most of the time!). On the brighter side my doggy Bella is delighted that her mommy will be sick in bed for another week haha. At least she's happy :D