ELove's Brain Online

Please understand that I am highly cynical, sarcastic as hell, tend to swear and speak from my heart. My blogging is not only for me but others. Hopefully they make you laugh or touch your heart. I am completely random and full of ideas, stories, and relatable (Yeah I make up words) issues. I guess this is my disclaimer ****If you are close minded, take everything so seriously, or are grumpy.....need not apply****

ELove's brain online today: I hear a knocking at my door. I stay as still as possible not even typing for fear she will hear me. "Emiwweeee (Emily), I know I'm not supposed to knock on youwww (your) doowwww (door) but its wwweeellly (really) important." I sit motionless like I'm hiding our from the police. Another light knock and a whisper, "Emiweeeee." I stare at the door and two tiny shadows where there is a crack at the bottom of the door. I want to speak but I know I need to stay strong and follow the rules. I see a tiny piece of paper slide under my door. I stand up slowly moving to the paper like I just got passed a note in class and the teacher will see if I take it. I open it up to see a picture of the sunset, trees, and people laughing (really its just scribbles in a circular motion in several colors). I smile laughing silently. I cannot resist her. I quickly put my stern face on and open the door. Adria is standing in a night gown a sticker in her hand looking up at me as she watches my face. I turn to my door and my jaw drops. There are about fifty stickers plastered to my door from flowers to Dora (Dora the explorer from the some kids channel) to address stickers. Adria is my room mate Elisa's four year old little girl and she knows the rules of the house are if Aunty Ems door is shut no knocking or coming to my room. I hold the little piece of paper in my hand look from the stickers to Adria, her brown soft hair is sticking up in the back with her big blue/grey eyes sparkling up at me as she bats her daddy long leg long eyelashes. She pushes her hair back nervously, her little toes digging into the carpet she breaks the silence "Um Emiweee see what I did. I decowwwated your doowww (door) and also did you get my note." Adria stands proudly, my mind for a second goes to all the stickers thinking wow this will impress the men and how will i get them off. Adria is rocking back and forth now looking at the ground. I take her head in my hand stroking her hair softly, "wow Adria this sure is a lot of stickers." She shrugs and tugs me to the living room "there is a movie on will you watch it with me pwwweeasseeee." I speak to her as if she is my equal, "Adria you know not to knock on my door I will not watch the movie with you." Before I know it she is on my lap cuddled in stroking my arms and hands like she does. I sit there relaxed by her touch watching some god awful princess movie. I press my lips to her hair breathing in deep. I miss her smell, her touch, her voice, the softness of her nighties, the way she can get you to do anything and not be mad. She passed in September. She was hit by a motorcycle and was killed......I still miss the way she smelled.