ELove's Brain Online

So I feel like one of those bodies that has been rotted down to the bone. Slowly, but every dream I had, every hope, even every crazy fantazy I had just stripped away. I can't even shut my eyes at night and pretend I'm with the man of my dreams, or any man matter of fact. I never feel sorry for myself maybe it would be okay if I did . I instead feel nothing. Not a good numb nothing. But an empty void that is almost not human. I never saw it before and now I am beginning to and its really, well, its really nothing. Gosh it takes all I am to have friends and I just sit there with these beautiful people with lovely lives swirling around me: Wives, husbands, mothers, children, boyfriends, girlfriends, friends. They are all this forgein idea to me now like a theory I have given up on unfortunately so has my body. Anyways I take back ever saying I wanted to feel nothing I'd rather be numb. Nothing is a scary place.